WHISPER TO ME HELP ME REMEMBER

I CAN HEAR YOU LOUDER THAN EVER

T. I MET HIM YESTERDAY AND HE SAID SOMETHING LIKE HE REALLY LIKES ME AND HIS FRIEND TOLD MY FRIEND THAT HE WANTS MORE THAN JUST SNOGGING AND THINKS IM A COOL GIRL. NOONE SAID THIS TO ME BEFORE!!!!!
AND THEN I SNOGGED A GUY (OLD UGLY ONE) WHEN HE STANDING RIGHT NEXT TO ME. HE HATES ME NOW. I FEEL LIKE CRYING I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I KNOW I DONT HAVE TO APOLOGIZE AS WERE NOT TOGETHER OR SOMETHING BUT I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD. HE WAS REALLY REALLY DISSAPOINTED. HE SAID IM A SLUT AND HES OVER IT.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. WHY? WHY DO I HAVE TO FUCK EVERYTHING UP???
IM GOING TO TALK TO HIM TOMORROW. IT WILL BE THE FIRST TIME WE SEE IN DAYTIME...