LET THE SUNSHINE IN

TADAA
AFTER A HARDCORE BREAKDOWN YESTERDAY (CRIED MYSELF INTO SLEEP) TODAY IS SUPER BEAUTIFUL DAY.
STILL NOT ATTENDING SCHOOL THO. SITTING IN THE SUN EATING GOOD SANDWICH FROM KAMPS AND COFFEE AND LIGHT CIGARETTES AND LOTS OF WATER DRINKING! REALLY WORRIED ABOUT BESTIE J WHO GOT WASTED AT THE PSYCH. PLACE .....
S TOLD OTHER J (SECOND BESTIE) HE WANTS TO SEE ME IN DAYTIME AND WANTS TO BECOME FRIENDS WITH ME BUT NO RELATIONSHIP. I DONT CARE AS I DONT HAVE A CLUE ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS ANYWAY. IM A BIT NERVOUS RIGHT NOW....
HE TEXTED ME ON SUNDAY ASKING IF WANTED TO WATCH A MOVIE AND I DIDNT RESPONSE. TODAY I GOT MESSAGE ON FACING ASKING ME IF I WAS MAD AT HIM AND HE WANTS ME TO CONTACT HIM. WHAT A CUTIE
NEVER NEVER NEVER EVER THOUGHT THIS COULD EVER HAPPEN. I MEAN THERE WAS A TIME I ADOOOORED HIM!!!
NOW I JUST DONT KNOW. I DONT KNOW ABOUT ANYTHING. MOST IMPORTANT THING FOR ME IS TO SORT MY SHIT OOUT AND GET A FUTURE. A JOB WOULD BE A GOOD BEGINNING