THE BITTER TASTE BEEN FOOLED AGAIN

FRIDAY I MET UP WITH S AND P. REALLY NICE AND LATER I WENT INTO TOWN WITH THEM (MY FRIENDS WOULDNT COME) AND BEEN QUITE CHEEKY WITH EVERY ONE WHICH WAS FUN. THEN HE TOOK ME HOME.... I REALLY THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS FINE. KINDA.
BUT NOW IT TURNES OUT HIM AND HIS MATES ARE MAKING FUCKING FUN OF ME AND STUFF LIKE THAT. J WHICH ISNT EVEN IN TOWN TOLD ME. HURTS QUITE A LOT. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. IM LONELY AND I FEEL WORTHLESS AND USED. AND I LIKE HIM. WHY IS HE DOING THIS? AM I WRONG? IS IT THE SEX? I DONT FIND IT THAT PHENOMENAL. WHAT CAN I DO? I DONT WANNA BE ALONE (THE SUN IS SHINING AND IM CRYING AND LISTENING TO HIS FAVOURITE BAND) WTF