CAN U BUY FUTURE ?

on saturday a fucked a dude i know on the toilette of a bar. he is from mexiko and totally cute and funny but this happeing is just waaaaackk !!! friend of him was teasing me already and having hardcore giggles... superb! as he is freinds with LE MAN. le man invited me to his house drinking earlier (before the fuck)... hope he still gonna call me... another thing: im in love with S a little bit!
gonna see him on x-mas! pretty party. MEMO TO MYSELF: LESS DRINKING!!!!!!

I WANT RED LIPS, NICE WAVY FUZZY HAIR ... & STUFF

OMG

okay. not okay!!!!
yesterday i went to the pretty club after ive been in bed already! at 3 in the morning. had a fun time drinking jägermeister with julie then dancing blablabla. met aj. handsome guy. a bit silly attitude thou. THEN took PILLs and snorted something?! THEN talked to S (=cutie, see himm a lot, never say hi, awkward time!) and after a while met HIM AGAIN in the gay bar. then decideed to go home to my place WITH HIM and J... then we went to bed and MADE OUT!!!!! drunk but i remeber every single thing. its like im 16 again!!! i like him a lot but i know that sadly hes got a girlfrined KINDA.... really afraid now cause its for sure that we will see eatchother at leat at chrismas (big pretty party)....really wanna be closer with him...friends / lovers whatever hes such a cutie !

u will get what u deserve

oooooooops.
mum just told me im the bad girl from this old tale. pechmarie. the lazy, mean one. and YEs i can spend crismas eve with my "family" but i should PLEase make myself pretty this one time. and after dinner its NO PRoblem to fuck off for me! how nice. well she said she thinking its about time that someone tells me im not that great. aha. as if i wouldnt fucking know already.

i believe in KARMA.
sandy (pictures) is an excellent axample!!! shes had a hard time. multiple times i think. when i know look and her blog i try really hard not to envy her for her happy face!!! i think religion is pathetic and bullshit. i believe that people get what they deserve sooner or later. like there are bad times but there will defo be good ones coming. theres a night before each day.

i deserce shit and thats what i get. im useless. i find it fucking hard thinking i can change. change my habits maybe..

YOU NEVER SEEN THE SEA...

-HAVING A HARD TIME FINDING NICE SHOES (ETSY)
-THINKING OF TAKING A BREAK FROM MY LIVE AND DOING A JOURNEY TO THE SEA BY MYSELF (FERRY!! )
-CONSIDERING WINTER PAUSE: BE GEEKY / PREPPY / GOOD UNTIL SPRING KICKS IN: SCHOOL AND NICE GEEK STUFF AND NO (!!) ALTSTADT, MAX. 1 CIDER IN THE PUB AFTER WORK (WHICH WORK BTW?! HAH )

say fuck u & smile

paint it black....i lost my coat and my hat